a cabin of isolation in my heart
away from gross leaderboards of who's prettier or cooler
or who has the curviest hips or the thinnest waist
the tightest pussy or the most symmetrical face
the most interesting the most informed
the most talented the most conformed
away from the destructive tendrils of a worthless, doomed culture
|an empty bliss beyond this world|
i want to cut off the part of me that uses and is used
the skin that humans are so stupid and crazed about
if only the dumb animals could see that we are just dust and bones
underneath it all
i'm going to ganymede to create a new way of life for myself
there will be homemade music and vodka
isao tomita - "daphnis et chloé suite" (ravel)
isao tomita is a japanese composer and arranger for electronic instruments. he has released arrangements of debussy préludes, ravel's orchestral works, mussorgsky's pictures at an exhibition, holst's planets, and many other things - space-related and classical music alike. this track is from the ravel album (1979), which contains various ravel pieces... this one is my favorite arrangement, i think. the first time i heard it i was literally dumbfounded, i mean, i couldn't move - i could only absorb the amazing beauty that was tomita. his artistic genius is only rivaled by the perfection of ravel and his ballet daphnis et chloé. you will be amazed at not only the beauty of ravel's music, but also the sheer ARTISTRY (i can't think of a different or better word) for what tomita presents us here. he must have spent so much fucking time figuring out how best to orchestrate the different instruments, using only a Moog analog synthesizer. there are sounds here you didn't even know existed, some of them sound kind of wacky, but i swear to god, it is the most lovely thing i have ever heard.
isao tomita - "footprints in the snow" (debussy)
here is a prélude from his debussy album, snowflakes are dancing (1974)
unwound - "disappoint" / "feeling$ real"
i started listening to unwounda whole lot recently, probably the entire past three months. i started out listening to only leaves turn inside you, which is a perfect album, but i eventually got their entire discography and went through it. i came across this album, their fourth or fifth full-length or something, the future of what (1995). i found it to be incredibly visceral and intense and surreal, i got fucking addicted. this track absolutely kills.
i never want to dive inside this heart of mine
having no idea
whatever happened to...
and then this track... words can't describe it's power. it's the last track on their first album (not self-released), fake train (1993). this entire album is SO. GOOD. seriously, listen to it NOW!!!!!! (if you have good taste, that is).
they say we're not for real
WE'LL SHOW THEM HOW WE FEEEEEEEELL
suis la lune - "with wings of feathers & glue" / "one and all, every bit"
suis la lune is a post-hardcore/screamo band from Stockholm, Sweden. i know what you're thinking when you hear the word "screamo" but trust me, this is nothing like that. they are really seriously moving and their music is genuinely very good. the lyrics, the vocals (best screaming voice), the guitars and bass and drums and melodic lines and emotional content - it's so perfect for blasting in your car on maximum volume and drowning out everything else. this is the first track on their EP heir (2008). the whole release is only about 15 minutes long, but listening to it is like the best 15 minutes you could ever possibly spend.
this track might strike some as overly emotional or something, but it really spoke to me when i first heard it. the lyrics seem to have come from my own damn mind. it's the final track on their album riala (2013).
first time i saw you,
my heart skipped a beat
first time i held your hand,
i shaked like a leaf
and for each day that goes we drift further
i think i'm losing what i used to be
i think i'm losing my personality
and for each day that goes we drift further
you should never see this side of me
i don't want you to see what i turned out to be
this is the last day i will look you in the eyes
tomorrow won't be the day you will see what i wished to be
i can still see you on the shore
i keep drifting further from you
and i watch you as i'm floating
dj rashad - "drank, kush, barz (feat. Spinn)"
i think this track showcases his amazing skills quite well, plus it's hella catchy
double cup (2013)
boris - "heavy rain"
here's a track from japanese noise rock band boris's newest album, noise (2014). i like it a lot, and the album's not bad either. i'm seeing them in august!
plus en plus
i've been really into susumu yokota (横田進) lately. his album love or die as well as this one. he is really innovative and imaginative and makes the most beautiful things ever. i was listening to this album at work the other day and heard something, @24:21 yokota actually samples an excerpt from Ravel's piano piece "Oiseaux tristes" ("sad birds") from Miroirs as well as the "Minuet" from Sonatine. amazing how he utilized those beautiful few seconds to make something even more beautiful and interesting out of it :'3 god i love cool people
speaking of cool people, i've been hanging out with a few lately who really inspire me. it's so refreshing to have friends that will actually make me feel excited about life as opposed to doomed. it's also refreshing to not have school to worry about, to be secure and feel safe about at least one thing in my life - that i am doing pretty okay. having fun and going outside a satisfactory amount. one problem, though, is that i keep getting hurt by the same person instead of simply removing them from my life because i feel like i need them. looks like the obvious choice is to get rid of them, for better or for worse.
i try not to ever think about people from the past, they might as well be dead since they are no longer present in my life anymore ...
i can't force you to care, but i can force you out! bye!
MORE RANDOM THINGS
- the caretaker
- teaching piano lessons
- teaching piano lessons
- going to the park and swinging kids on the merry-go-round
- playing simple piano pieces
- bach inventions, chopin waltzes, etudes and exercises from when i was a kid
- really old out of tune upright pianos
- ramen with green onions
- abandoned golf courses with really expensive green grass
- driving alone at night
- singing along with Björk
- almond milk
- going to the pool
- late night chill techno
- sleeping all day
- construction sites
- crossing the road by myself
- driving in a 2014 bmw with my boss
- never actually writing the letters that i compose in my head
- short sleeve button up shirts
- tiny kittens that bite your fingers but it doesn't hurt it's only so cute you think you might die
- actually having a savings account with money in it
- re-connecting with old buddies
- getting introduced to new buddies
- la musique