white over forest

the treetops are brighter than ever

the moon shines white

like a cold fire

on silver bodies

we rest on grass

emerald-black

so soft are we
in this warm dream

皇

without arrogance or hesitation

皇
 

i am tied to time
captured enraptured

i am in love with this world
i stumble lost in my self
craving wholeness craving indifference

the animal with radiant hands

the animal with eyes in its fingertips

i see i hear i breathe

i beg for obedience to this day and night

皇

00:00 In den Gärten Pharaos
18:12 Vuh
38:40 Kha-White Structures 1
49:20 Kha-White Structures 2

  

皇

the most important text i have read in perhaps my entire life comes from the following ancient shambhala text, originating in tibet

the message is one of a belief in the basic goodness in the universe

upon first cultivating in the self the bravery to be without fear, the well-being of all which surrounds follows naturally

皇

བདེ་འབྱུང

That mind of fearfulness

Should be put in the cradle of loving-kindness

And suckled with the profound and brilliant milk of

eternal doubtlessness.

In the cool shade of fearlessness,

Fan it with the fan of joy and happiness.

When it grows older,

With various displays of phenomena,

Lead it to the self-existing playground.

When it grows older still,

In order to promote the primordial confidence,

Lead it to the archery range of the warriors.

When it grows older still,

To awaken primordial self-nature,

Let it see the society of men

Which possesses beauty and dignity.

Then the fearful mind

Can change into the warrior’s mind,

And that eternally youthful confidence

Can expand into space without beginning or end.

At that point it sees the Great Eastern Sun.

being without deception

  皇  
WE CANNOT CHANGE THE WAY THE WORLD IS,
BUT BY OPENING OURSELVES TO THE WORLD AS IT IS,
WE MAY FIND THAT GENTLENESS, DECENCY, AND BRAVERY ARE AVAILABLE - 
NOT ONLY TO US, BUT TO ALL BEINGS

dream evolve

can one ever discern the overarching mood of one's life?

i guess that is a question not for the living

.

life's insolvability-as-solution 

continually reveals itself to me 

with each sensual mountain-shaped

peak and fall...

.

is each separate external creation
merely a representation of
yet another attempt at [truth]?

are the processes of searching
(i.e. artistic processes)
made [untrue] when abandoned? 

or is art [true] when
left alone as a window
to be looked through?

.

... eternally exploring the nature of eternity ...

.

i am more obsessed than ever with the combination of 

popol vuh psychedelic/kraut rock group
germany, 1969-2001

this band was formed by florian fricke, 
who became obsessed with 
the then-new array of sounds 
made available by the Moog analog synthesizer
 

 

and

werner herzog film director
germany, 1968-present

this director is fast becoming my favorite director
and documentary filmmaker, as well as favorite
human being.

popol vuh + herzog collaborated on six separate films.


it all began when i saw the documentary  
burden of a dream (1982).

it is about the incredible challenges
herzog faced in the production of
fitzcarraldo (1982), set in the amazon -

klaus kinski in fitzcarraldo

the "dream" of herzog's causing the burden
was his mad desire to manually pull a  
320-ton steamship up a hill.

the production took longer than five years
and faced countless setbacks.
   

werner herzog on set of fitzcarraldo

.

the soundtrack by popol vuh to the film nosferatu is
my favorite meditative,
transcendental work

here you will find the sound of space's vastness
assisted by instruments and musical styles
traditionally indian in origin

(1978)

. 

i next saw the film
aguirre, the wrath of god (1972)
 

i can honestly say
with no doubt

this is my favorite piece of film in the entire history of the universe

what makes it so great,
 

besides the incredible "acting" of klaus kinski 

(a force of nature, a completely unpredictable 

and almost uncontrollable element, whose work
for all intents and purposes is
not an act but real),

is

the respectful exploitation of
the natural world as being,
equal to the human

and sometimes

indisputably at odds with him
in control of him
laughing at him
in pain with him

i think more than all others done by popol vuh
the soundtrack to this film is most accurately
and beautifully portrayed here by herzog:

(speaking specifically about
florian fricke, a close creative friend)

"he was a poet first and a musician second - a composer.
his feel for the 'inner'  narrative of a cinematic story was infallible,
and his music had the ability to change our perspective as onlookers,
even though a picture always remains the same projection of light
in the cinema. he made visible what would otherwise have remained
mysterious and forever hidden in the images."

.

feldman the composer writes,

"i am interested in getting to Time in its unstructured existence.
that is, i am interested in how this wild beast lives in the jungle - not in the zoo."

.

i think the point of this post is that the truth i believe i have seen in this precise moment is of the jungle, the wild, the eternity

if i am to create art i wish for it to be a direct window with no surface, and

if i am to experience art i wish to not be deceived by the presence of surface