this is the first time i have ever in my life chosen the alone state willingly and voluntarily.
i choose it not because i romanticize it in my mind, as i so often tell myself -
i know it is my own personal challenge to undertake.
being alone used to strike such fear into my heart because of past experiences with it -
the darkness that so easily would envelop terrifies me still.
but i have realized some things, with the help of words and new perspectives.
i can choose to not let the darkness have that power over my mind.
i can find companionship in every living being.
fellowship with mankind, my fellow life.
it is my responsibility to break free from being a "child-of-somebody,"
to become fully a child-of-the-earth.
i met a girl named rose.
she was like a feral, wild spirit.
not feral in a negative sense.
she just did not confine herself to civilization and its tendencies.
it inspired me.
people inspire me all the time to break free from my own mind.